Returning to Basics
A loss of passion can make you question everything...but not for long.
When Did It All Go South?
In August 2018, I was on the vacation of a lifetime with my family. We were visiting Yellowstone National Park for the very first time, staying in the state of Montana. For two weeks, I hiked, took nature photos, encountered horses near the house we stayed at, and went white water rafting on the Yellowstone River. I stepped out of my comfort zone, hiked numerous trails, and felt a peace I hadn't known in months.
However, I changed upon coming home and returning to work.
No one had hurt me or said anything bad. But, I felt something was lost. I had ideas for writing whether for my blog, for YAYWORLD, or for my own writing endeavors. But nothing would come to me.
Did I lose my spark of creativity so quickly, again?
Excuses were made: "Oh I'll worry about that tomorrow," or "I'll focus on my work for a bit and then come back to this." Books on my shelf collected dust. My notebooks were left untouched. I focused on my work, my church, and other extracurricular activities.
I was still living life, but a part of me was missing. When things suddenly turn in a different direction, you feel like you're losing everything that matters to you.
For me, I felt I was losing my passion to write.
The Power of Words
A few weeks ago, I had a conversation with a woman at work about change. How change was hard, a struggle, and not fun. Just about all of us could agree that change is hard and unpleasant. However, without change we wouldn't grow stronger and better as people. During this conversation, she discussed the idea of "getting back to basics."
For some reason, I thought about my writing. Weeks after that conversation, I would clean my bookshelf and reorganize my desk. I would begin researching publications to submit poetry, fiction, and other works through composing a spreadsheet for deadlines. I would recall my work here and, basically, write this piece. I would edit pieces I've written from as far back as high school. I would even sign up for NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month, for a second time. I had tried NaNoWriMo for the very first time in 2016 and only reached 26,000 words. This year, I'm giving the novel another shot.
Step by step, I was refocusing my heart and mind on being the writer I knew I could be. Will it take time? Probably. Will I stumble again? Absolutely.
Yet, I must remember that I have achieved great writing endeavors before. The doubts didn't destroy my faith, but overshadowed it for a while.
However, I just needed the right words for beginning my way back, and I had found them: Get back to basics.
The Soul Search Continues
I wish this period of soul searching had a resolution. Right now, I am still searching for the answers. I have come to realize that resolution would be found only through the steps I took day after day to find my way again. But, that is how we learn to better ourselves and strengthen our passions. We fall, get back up, and try again.
If you need to return to basics or "your roots" with your passion, take some time to do so. Never give up on the things that bring not just joy to your heart, but joy to others. You will make an impact...and who knows...
Maybe one day you'll see you did at just the right time.